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[26 Feb 2007|07:14pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I'm still alive! I've got a cat now... Here are some old pictures of him.




His name is Harrison and he's the greatest cat ever!

Moving to Louisville this summer. I don't go to school anymore. I'm rapidly turning into an environmentalist... I've always been interested in keeping the planet green and I think I've found my calling.

I'll be getting an apartment, hopefully in the Highlands, definitely with Julie. I couldn't really ask for more.

And that's about it... you all know how to get in touch with me!

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The Colonel [16 Dec 2005|07:05pm]
The ColonelCollapse )
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It's a town full of losers and I'm pulling out of here to win [16 Dec 2005|06:16pm]
[ mood | weird ]

You know, I think I've learned a lot over the past two years.

Alright, alright, I know you all know my grades, quit laughing. But really. I do.

I've learned that I can't rely on myself to do anything important. I've let myself down far too many times and I still can't explain why I do. For the second time, I've squandered my parent's money and let my grades go down the drain to the point that my school has asked me to leave. First Ohio State, now Western Kentucky University. It took 2 quarters at Ohio State. 3 semesters at Western. Absolutely terrible.

So as I was saying, I can't rely on myself. I told myself that I'd do well, I tried, but somewhere along the way I started letting things slip, little things that snowballed and eventually caught up and ran me over. And I always do that.

I've learned that I really just need someone to talk to. I don't really have anyone I can talk to these days. I try to talk to a lot of people, but of all of them, nobody ever seems to really listen and care. I really do wonder what my friends think of me. Am I just Iain, the fuckup? I know that's what I am to my parents, and that's the only way I look at myself any more. It's true, after all; I'm just a fuckup.

I've learned that just because someone says they love you doesn't mean they'll take time out of their day to sit and talk about stuff. my girlfriend won't do it; not her fault she always has plans when I need to talk, but it'd be nice if she'd ditch her friends for me once in a while. My sister (I know, I know, you've never actually said it, but I've got that sibling 6th sense) never replies when I try to start a conversation online. My parents always say they want to talk, but every single time we try to it ends up with my mum screaming and running off crying or some shit like that. I really don't know why neither my mum or dad will actually LISTEN to me. I'm 21; by all rights, I'm an adult, am I not? But I'm also their son, and I don't think they'll ever give me a chance to have a real, "adult" conversation with them. I know they want the best for me, but what they want isn't what I want! it isn't what I think is best for me, and am I not allowed to make these calls for myself now? I'm not even sure what IS best for me, but isn't that the point? I want... no, I NEED to get out and try and make some sense of my life. To sort myself out. But I tell them that and they just don't listen. I try to tell them why what they're telling me isn't right, and they think I'm being rude any time I disagree with them. Seriously, ANY time I disagree with them, I'm just being rude. Apparently children aren't ever supposed to have ideas that differ from the ones their parents have for them already. I try to tell them that starting a career isn't what I want right now, that money isn't that important to me as long as I've got enough to scrape by, and they look at me like I'm some kind of moron, then tell me I'm stupid, and yeah, it goes from there.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend you think someone is, once you leave and move 6 hours away there's a 99% chance you'll only ever talk for 5 minutes a month after that, if at all. It really sucks, but it happens all too much. I lost all but one of my friends from Ohio State, and I get the feeling the same thing will happen again now; the people I spend time with down here in Bowling Green will be fine without me and I'll be stuck in Louisville working and living with my parents.

I've learned... no, I've realized that the only things which I know can make me happy these days are driving my Rabbit, playing/listening to music, and dreaming about the future. And that's probably not good.

I've learned that I have no fucking clue what I'm going to do next.

I know nobody is going to read this, nobody ever does. But like I already said, I've got no one else to talk to.

Well now I'm no hero
That's understood
All the redemption I can offer, girl
Is beneath this dirty hood
With a chance to make it good somehow
Hey what else can we do now
Except roll down the window
And let the wind blow back your hair
Well the night's busting open
These two lanes will take us anywhere...

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Country Song [17 Oct 2005|10:22pm]

Dying is easy it's what I'm living for
I heard a beggar as he wept on my floor

These days I just cant find my ground
No one seems to see me as I'm walking around

Cause in these times there's no surprise
I don't need to fantasise
It's all here in my mind

Some days I'm fine, nothing on my mind
Some days are ok only when I'm high

Love, life, happiness
Nothing more nothing else
Love, life, happiness
Nothing more no regrets
Love, life, happiness
Nothing more nothing else
Love, life, happiness
Nothing more no regrets

These are my times
These are my lives

Cause dying is easy it's what I'm living for
I heard a beggar as he wept on my floor

Time, these are my times
These are my lives
These are my times

In these eyes there's one surprise
We don't need to fantasise
It's all here in our minds

Some days I'm fine nothing on my mind
Some days are ok but I don't think that's right
Some days are ok but only when I'm high
Some days are ok but only when I'm high
Only when I'm high
These are my times (repeat)

Oh Come on (repeat)
These are my times (repeat)

Tick tock goes another one, yeah
Tick tock goes another one
Tick tock there's another one
Another soul gone
Tick tock there's another one gone
Another soul gone
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I want to sing my own song, that's all... [04 Sep 2005|01:29pm]




That's how I feel... how do you feel?
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[06 Aug 2005|01:38pm]
So my family might be moving to Billings, Montana... dead serious.
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[23 Jul 2005|10:13am]
I got a new housing assignment. PFT 1411. My roommate is Sean Harris. He is from Greenville, Texas. I guess I won't mess with him! (har har har)
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[22 Jul 2005|09:09am]
Man, WTF, one of my summer classes is over now, and I got an A... and my other one, is 2/3 over, and my grade is still 100%...

WTF!?!?! this isn't me.

(it's about time I did something right)
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[19 Jul 2005|04:14pm]
Here I go again. Fuck.
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[06 Jul 2005|09:30pm]
What the hell is up with this??

As a journalism student this makes me rather upset... there's a precedent being set here and I don't like it one bit... traditionally reporters have been able to keep their sources confidential... if this is the way things are going, there won't BE any more anonymous sources... think about what that'd mean...

Welcome to the future, folks...
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[02 Jul 2005|02:02am]
LUTHER VANDROSS NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
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[01 Jul 2005|11:28pm]
You guys don't get any more music because I doubt that ALL of you skipped these tracks, but none of you said anything. No fun.
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[30 Jun 2005|08:03pm]
It is unbearably hot and I'm sitting here doing schoolwork all night.

Damn I like complaining.
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[25 Jun 2005|04:25pm]
Just so you know, I really like the new Oasis album ( 'Don't Believe The Truth' ). I'll burn a copy for anyone who wants it.

Had a good day yesterday. Tried to take my girl out on a nice date for her birthday, wish I'd had more money to do stuff but I think it didn't go too badly.

Today we had a yard sale. Sold a bunch of stuff. Took a bunch more to Goodwill. Made about $850 all together, not bad.

That's about it.
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[24 Jun 2005|12:17am]
Happy birthday, love.
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[14 Jun 2005|05:50pm]
Article about the best band in the world, at least according to me, that says a lot of what I try to say.
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[12 Jun 2005|06:12pm]
People fucking suck. Why don't you all go to hell.
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